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Just realised that i didnt post anything on 2015. maybe i've been busy with my life. As i took my spm last year and i might say it was just the most shittiest year in my entire life. let me summarize everything in a phase. my life fucked up. that's it. sooo many things happened that i just don't know how to face it anymore.

it's a nine of january. my opening month of 2016 has been fucked up. today i visitted dad as he was admitted in ward bcs of his jantung and shit things happened in the ward. just so you know we all missing u so much, dad. i dont know how u describe to whatever shit that happened just now but i love you so much. just please fix everything or u might lose us one day. please fix everything dad.

Date.

We all have past that we cant forget & probaby wont ever forget. mine is still there. sticking in my brain like an uhu-glue hahah. memories never fade away. today was exactly the day that i was so happy enjoying my life 3 years ago. yep i still remember how big my smile was. i still remember how many butterflies were in my stomach. i still remember the goosebumps i got when i listen to his voice. i still remember how lucky i was that day. until everything changed. it sucks knowing that time changed people. not to forget, today was the day that i still cant forgive myself back then. the voice that tell me to move on & at the same time tell me to look my back. i was confusing with my own self till i realised that i was just a kid. dumb kid. i shouldnt care too much. i should enjoy myself & appreciate every single damn thing. not being an emotional kid who thinks she's big enough. but ofcourse, i do miss everything. i miss how happy i was. i miss how inlove i was. i miss how great those days were. its just that i cant stop thinking about that one person over 3 years. whatever it is, im still looking forward to be one of the person to talk to him. 

here's to our 1096 days. hahaha T_T 

Bestfriends.

Yayyyyyy i dedicated this post for you guys ((better appreciate it)) so here's dian, jie & illi. always being there for me. my gossip group. shopping group & everything. eventho diorang annoying gila they're still my best best bestfriend. whatever happens, we need to stick together & try to solve it together.

“When you're struggling with something, look at all the people around you and realize that every single person you see is struggling with something, and to them, it's just as hard as what you're going through.”